All the World’s a Stage

From Shakespeare’s As You Like It, 1600:

JAQUES:
All the world’s a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse’s arms.
And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress’ eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon’s mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper’d pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side,
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.

Awesome. Exhilarating. It makes me pause half way, and savored every moment of the scenes… This is William Shakespeare’s masterpiece.

All the world’s a stage..

The phases of our life is just like a piece of act.. How well that we are going to perform, very much depends of ourselves. The stage is as wide as the sky that God given to us. He is the stage, the judge, the audience, the backstage workers, the air.

And all the men and women are merely players..

I smell romance, the domination of humanity. We are just actor or actress on the stage. No matter how the act, the stage remain as a stage.

They have their exist and their entrance..

People come in and out of our lives. Different phase, different scene, different experience. There are main characters, sub main-characters.. they come into their and they depart from you.. is just a matter of time..

Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans everything..

It sounds as if in the end there is nothing that worth the smile, the souls sparks, the treasures.. Cos when the act finishes, everything is just delusion.. We are going to the Lord as the act stop.

Sigh. Time stops.

About Love & Marriage

Eventually, my 3 days off started after continuous hectic nights,  I slept till late evening, unwillingly forced myself up to feed my groaning stomach and watched “Sex and the City – Get carried away” DVD. I was not into romance movies or books but what caught me was the introduction, flashing gorgeous dresses by the four main characters. I was eager to find out their style – Carries, Samantha, Charlotte and Miranda.

Well, the truth about this movie is more then just style. I had misjudged it as it was not as superficial as I thought. It is about love, relationships, friendships, faithfulness, courage, reconciliation, definitely more than sex.

Big quited on the day of his wedding with Carries. Before he decided to leave, he was hoping Carries could spot his car just behind her and would see him eye to eye. He needed reassurance from her that the wedding was just about two of them as what Carries told him yesterday. Unfortunately, Carries was so preoccupied with her friends buzzed around her, she didn’t notice. Big left without even try all his might to get the message across.. If not because of Carries rang him and found out the truth,  Carries would be left with the awaiting guests at the banquet. Poor girl..  It was seriously humiliating.. And another common human trait – selfish. Sigh. And suddenly, after Big tore Carries heart, he wanted to plaster it back immediately. He wanted to get marry with her again. Flip and Flop. Big was unable to overcome his fear, most probably of his two failed marriage. He didn’t have strong confidence therefore he was swayed away by Miranda’s negative remark about getting marriage before the day of the wedding. He didn’t have faith in Carries as he was actually opposed some of the wedding plan.

Both of them suffered some degree of mental breakdown for months, and patched things up in the end. Big purposed by kneeling down to Carries this time. So romantic.. Not about two mature grown-up talks things over to get marry anymore. This time it seemed that Big was very sure he wants Carries. How sure he is?

The marriage is not built on the solid ground I would said. Big had married twice. I guessed Big divorce his ex-wifes because of they were unable to get over the marital conflict. And there is a very high possibility that history may repeat itself. The human love is like a pendulum, volatile and fluxional. If anytime it hits to the bottom line, selfishness (a very common human instinct for self-defense) surfaces. Relationship break-up, hurts lingered, trust breached. Another emotional turmoil. Never-ending.

Should you blame yourself? Should you blame others? No. We are all sinners. We hurt people and people hurt us. And the emotional clutters kept pilling up.

I hope Big and Carries find happiness. However, big needs to clear all his fears and clutters completely before he could love Carries completely.  There is a person I want Big to know, he is Jesus. Big just needs to ask Jesus to come to his life. It just takes s small simple step of faith to believe. Once he asks and believe. He will see tremendous breakthrough. Believe in Jesus took our sins away and cleanse us. There if anyone in Christ, he is a new creation, the old had gone, the new had come.

Accepting Jesus is a gift. Once you have experience, you will never know how exhilarating to meet Him. You will know what is true love. It is not about your own effort, it is Him. He carries you on his mighty arms. The more we look upon His countenance, the more we we transform to be like him. How amazing of His Grace..

Sometimes, we feel so dry that we ask how can we give and fulfill other people needs. I am so tired. Jesus is waiting for you to renew your souls. “Put your burden on my shoulders, give me all your worry, let me carry you!”. When you find how much Jesus loves you, you automatically give, not with the intention of getting anything, but you fulfill the need of others because you know Jesus loves you and you love him. All glory to Him, not feeding your pride.

Ask from Him

Yesterday while I was driving my way to work, God told me to ask from Him. I told God I want to know Jesus more and more and always be near to Him, I don’t want to be lost again. I want your discernment in my everyday life.

At midnight, while I was writing report God asked me again to ask Him. I stopped and wandered what I really want. I told him I don’t know. And that I time I don’t really know I am thinking about. Mmmm… The salvation of my friends and family… then I continued writing my report.

And now, while I was flipping the bible verse to meditate. I saw this verse.

Matthew 21:22 If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.

Then, I saw this verse as below twice.

Matthew 7:7 Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.

And it dawned on me God is seriously want me to think about what I really want. He is ever ready to pour the blessing! Well, God I know what I want must according to the scripture! Thanks in advance. My wish list will be coming out soon.

Let Go, Let God

Hebrew 10:22

Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.

70% Right brain Dominated

I came across a site called braingle. I am exactly like a right-brained dominated person, as a left handed myself.

Some of the characteristics of each hemisphere:

Left Hemisphere Handles verbal tasks (reading, writing, talking) Solves problems logically Looks at differences Prefers multiple choice tests Likes to plan and structure information Prefers analytical tasks

Right Hemisphere Looks for patterns or similarities Is fluid and spontaneous Acts upon hunches or guesses Handles visual tasks (like drawing) Prefers open-ended questions Synthesizes ideas Handles aesthetic appreciation

http://www.braingle.com/mind/index.php?cat=1

I act spontaneously according to my intuition most of the time. And I tend to look for patterns and similarities rather than the different. It is so true. I love aesthetic appreciation – beauty, spiritual and art. I still work logically and analytically but hunches always there to influence me in making decision. And the thing different, I don’t like open-ended question, I like argumentative. I found myself not really into organize and plan things as I am spontaneous. But I do prefer structure information and I do like handle verbal task, especially reading and writing.

I can say that I am 70% right brain dominated. I hope to improve in organizing task.

Trust God in his timing

Today I went to have had my car washed. While waiting, I had a small conversation with the boss. He suddenly asked me “So, you have boyfriend already?” I said: “The right one hasn’t appeared yet..” Suddenly, I was wondering what would he think as a middle 20 year old lady still single and available. He might think I was not marketable enough… I was slipping into insecurity in that very seconds.. then I started to fight within to gain back my sense .. I can’t simply find anybody to be with for the sake of relationship. Love comes naturally. I don’t mean that I want to be single all my life but if the man is not into you or you are not into him and you are dating just because you are old enough to find a husband/wife, you are going to have big regret later in life…

And God knocked my head, HEY, why should you care so much of what other think? Why should you be subjected to the judgment of the norm? Why should you be intimidated? Where is your faith in me? Do not be desperate, you have my LOVE and my WORD. I will grant you the desire of your heart. You will find a God-fearing man who is into you as much as you do. You will move in the same rhythm with I. I know the timing.

One Solitary Life

Here is a man who was born in an obscure village, the child of a peasant woman. He grew up in another village, he worked in a carpenter’s shop until he was 30, and then, for three years, he was an itinerant preacher. He never owned a home. He never wrote a book. He never held an office. He never had a family. He never went to college. He never put his foot inside a big city. He never travelled more than two hundred miles from the place where he was born. He never did any one of the things that usually accompanied greatness. He had no credentials but himself..

“While still a young man, the tide of popular opinion turned against him. His friends ran away. One of them denied him. He was turned over to his enemies. He went through the mockery of a trial. He was nailed upon a cross between two thieves. While he was dying, his executioners gambled for the only piece of property he had on earth – his coat. When he was dead, he was laid in a borrowed grave through the pity of a friend.

Twenty long centuries have come and gone and today he is the centerpiece of the human race and leader of the column of progress. He never wrote a book. Yet more books have been written about him than anyone on earth. He never wrote a song. Yet he has furnished the theme for more songs than all the songwriters combined. This Jesus of Nazareth, without money and arms has conquered more millions than Alexander, Caesar, and Napoleon put together. Without science and learning, he spoke such words of life as were never spoken before or since and produced effects that lie beyond the reach of any orator or poet. All the armies that ever marched, all the navies that were ever built; all the parliaments that ever sat and all the kings that ever reigned, put together, have not affected the life of a man upon this earth as powerfully as this one man.

By Unknown Author

The organ that makes life

In all organs in our body, I guess the most intrinsic, precious and fragile organ is the brain. The brain is the one that makes life. Working in ICU for almost 10 months plus, I am more taxing in taking care of brain hemorrhage patients. Subtle change either in neurological response or vital sign could be lethal. High BP risks of re-bleed. Low BP risks of decreasing cerebral perfusion and thus leads to ischaemic brain tissues. Liver tissues can regenerate. Kidney can substitute with dialysis. Brain tissues died is death. And a normal person can simply turn to vegetative. Sometimes the patient may very drowsy at that moment and better in the next hour. The wax and wane neurological changes do put you in dilemma especially at night. I pray that God grant me the wisdom to know when is in deep sleep is and when is deteriorating. It is important to detect the slightest change and know when to inform. Any delay treatment can result in irreversible damage. With blanket covered the patient, you might miss out when this below started.

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Let’s Drink from Him

I need God more than ever before in my life. He is in my every breath. He knows my every thoughts, every action, every dreams.. past, present and future.

I am glad that I know such a good God. And it is my greatest desire that my family and friends come to know Christ, this beautiful savior. There is no God in the world who would die for his children in order that they can free from curse and be blessed eternally. Accepting Jesus is a gift. It is not an obligation. I hope that my family and friends would have an encounter with Jesus and get to known Him personally. And they would experience that He is the living water that refreshes me everyday. Those who drinks from him will never be thrist again, for they have found a fountain of spring water. I got a empty designed-water-bottle as a Christmas present during ICU Christmas party last year. I had been using it for almost months. That reminded me that God tells me to drink from Him. He wants to make me concentrate on His work, on His path. To stand on Him, to meditate His living words, to keep my eyes on His way, to give Him my heart.

He has me in his mind, always. He has you in his mind, always too. That’s His love for you and me. Jesus is the same today, yesterday and tommorrow.. He will not stop loving you. You may be stumbling down, reaching to pits of the abyss, cursing everyone, blaming yourself, blaming God, hiding away from him, rejecting him.. He will not stop loving you. He will not forsake you. That’s His love for you and me.

He has a great plan for everyone of us.

The 6th Club Crew Championship

I was into dragon boating 5 years ago before I went to PJ. It was exhilarating experience to race in the Teluk Bahang dam. But seriously it was also very tiring. I am looking forward to go there again end of this month.

I join Pacific West back under Coach Lawrance. Surprisingly, there were 90% new faces, all mostly teenagers. 5 years down the road, many things changed. Best friend can turn to enemy. And that reminded me Psalm 118:8 It is better to take refuge in the Lord, than to trust in man.

We were practicing in the late evening. The neon lights from the buildings from the island gave us some dim vision. Lawrance still be able to supervise us. I was on the coach motor boat to observe the stroke and move. Then, I was placed inside for some hand-on. And guess what it was not fun at all, very exhausted. My stamina does decrease tremendously.

It was beautiful to look at the island from the sea. I wanted to capture the island from that angle at that every moment!