It is not 忘不了wang bu liao, it is 不了情 bu liao qing

I came across David Tao’s version of 忘不了 {wang bu liao} which means unforgetable. It seems too R&B and spoilt the uniqueness of this song. I don’t know how to appreciate it. I prefer the sentimental and slow style. As I googled for other version, I came across this sing with the same title and it was 忘不了 by 费星, not the one I look for.

为何一转眼 时光飞逝如电 , 看不清的岁月 抹不去的从前 就像一阵风 吹落恩恩和怨怨
也许你和我 没有谁对谁错, 忘不了你的泪 忘不了你的好 , 忘不了醉人的缠绵 也忘不了你的誓言 何不让这场梦 没有醒来的时候 只有你和我 直到永远

Though wrong song, but this 忘不了 is melodious.

Then I found this so called the earliest version by sang Chai Qing.. still couldn’t find the composer..

歌手：蔡琴 chai qing（最早版本）
忘不了 忘不了 忘不了你的错 忘不了你的好 忘不了雨中的散步 也忘不了那风里的拥抱
忘不了 忘不了 忘不了你的泪 忘不了你的笑 忘不了落叶的惆怅
也忘不了那花开的烦恼

寂寞的长巷 而今斜月清照 冷落的秋千 而今迎风轻摇 它重复你的叮咛
一声声
忘了 忘了 它低诉我的衷曲 一声声 难了 难了

寂寞的长巷 而今斜月清照 冷落的秋千 而今迎风轻摇它重复你的叮咛
一声声
忘了 忘了 它低诉我的衷曲 一声声 难了 难了
忘不了 忘不了 忘不了春已尽 忘不了花已老 忘不了离别的滋味 也忘不了那相思的苦恼

Then I found the originality through the movie Bu Liao Qing 1961.

Apparently the title of the song is not忘不了 it is 不了情. It is sung in the movie不了情 bu liao qing.

In the movie, it is ling dai who acted singing but the original singer is gu mei. Click here to listen.

The Singer : 顧媚 gu mei

The song composer : 王福齡 wang fu ling

The lyric composer : 陶秦 tao qing

Anyway, I prefer Chai Qing or Teresa Teng’s voice.

Sunday at home

The Sunday morning started with unpleasant monthly menstruation cramp. I took pain killer and canceled all the outing. I would rather stay at home with this inconvenience then engaging in activities that I couldn’t even enjoy.

I vividly remembered how I struggled to put up with it when I was in an important function. There were no pain killer and I was too timid to run away from the hall as a school student. And I was desperate for the function to end as soon as possible so that I could go back and lay down on my bed.

So, when this monthly cycle comes, when the attack comes, I would either retreat in my own sanctuary; or , If unavoidable I would resort for a pain killer!

I carry your heart with me

I carry your heart with me by E.E. Cumming(1894-1953)

i carry your heart with me

(i carry it in my heart)

i am never without it

(anywhere i go you go,my dear;

and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear no fate

(for you are my fate, my sweet)

i want no world

(for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows

here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;

which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide

and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart

(i carry it in my heart)

Psychosis - Paranoid

Ah Chu yee came to bring coffee for my mum this morning and she asked my mum was it that the aunty lived next door had”something wrong in her mind”. Apparently, my neighbor had complaint to her that somebody purposely put some wild lethal mushroom in her plants, somebody came to scratch her new honda car with metal.. Chu yee suspected that she was crazy. I was sitting not far and I told Chu Yee that this aunty indeed did complain to me and my mum. I guessed she told everyone. I just ignored.

This is very common - it is called paraniod. It is one of the commonest psychosis that I noticed in most of the human. We, a normal well-being, had some degree of psychosis. There was a person reacted negatively when I mentioned that particular someone suffered from psychosis. It seemed that not many would accept that a normal human being had some degree of psychosis.The severity of it depends on the environment, the state of our health physically and mentally, and our relationships.  It was a bit overboard for my neighbor for she had been habored with the thought of people want to make her life miserable.

Nobody want to make your life miserable. You are the one who responsibly for your own life. Being paranoid and keep suspecting will only exhaust you and distraught you from your goals and dreams. You need to realize that or else your life will be in constant fear and worry.

I thank God for Jesus. With Him, I have great confidence in Him. His Holy spirit dwells in me.. He keeps my eyes forward and to His great plan.

In Trasient

Piercing

Pricking

In transient

Let in be

Breezing in

Again

Like

Bright light

Shines

Through the darkness

Let it go

Let it be

Piercing

Pricking

in Transient

All the World’s a Stage

From Shakespeare’s As You Like It, 1600:

JAQUES:
All the world’s a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse’s arms.
And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress’ eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon’s mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper’d pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side,
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.

Awesome. Exhilarating. It makes me pause half way, and savored every moment of the scenes… This is William Shakespeare’s masterpiece.

All the world’s a stage..

The phases of our life is just like a piece of act.. How well that we are going to perform, very much depends of ourselves. The stage is as wide as the sky that God given to us. He is the stage, the judge, the audience, the backstage workers, the air.

And all the men and women are merely players..

I smell romance, the domination of humanity. We are just actor or actress on the stage. No matter how the act, the stage remain as a stage.

They have their exist and their entrance..

People come in and out of our lives. Different phase, different scene, different experience. There are main characters, sub main-characters.. they come into their and they depart from you.. is just a matter of time..

Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans everything..

It sounds as if in the end there is nothing that worth the smile, the souls sparks, the treasures.. Cos when the act finishes, everything is just delusion.. We are going to the Lord as the act stop.

Sigh. Time stops.

About Love & Marriage

Eventually, my 3 days off started after continuous hectic nights,  I slept till late evening, unwillingly forced myself up to feed my groaning stomach and watched “Sex and the City - Get carried away” DVD. I was not into romance movies or books but what caught me was the introduction, flashing gorgeous dresses by the four main characters. I was eager to find out their style - Carries, Samantha, Charlotte and Miranda.

Well, the truth about this movie is more then just style. I had misjudged it as it was not as superficial as I thought. It is about love, relationships, friendships, faithfulness, courage, reconciliation, definitely more than sex.

Big quited on the day of his wedding with Carries. Before he decided to leave, he was hoping Carries could spot his car just behind her and would see him eye to eye. He needed reassurance from her that the wedding was just about two of them as what Carries told him yesterday. Unfortunately, Carries was so preoccupied with her friends buzzed around her, she didn’t notice. Big left without even try all his might to get the message across.. If not because of Carries rang him and found out the truth,  Carries would be left with the awaiting guests at the banquet. Poor girl..  It was seriously humiliating.. And another common human trait - selfish. Sigh. And suddenly, after Big tore Carries heart, he wanted to plaster it back immediately. He wanted to get marry with her again. Flip and Flop. Big was unable to overcome his fear, most probably of his two failed marriage. He didn’t have strong confidence therefore he was swayed away by Miranda’s negative remark about getting marriage before the day of the wedding. He didn’t have faith in Carries as he was actually opposed some of the wedding plan.

Both of them suffered some degree of mental breakdown for months, and patched things up in the end. Big purposed by kneeling down to Carries this time. So romantic.. Not about two mature grown-up talks things over to get marry anymore. This time it seemed that Big was very sure he wants Carries. How sure he is?

The marriage is not built on the solid ground I would said. Big had married twice. I guessed Big divorce his ex-wifes because of they were unable to get over the marital conflict. And there is a very high possibility that history may repeat itself. The human love is like a pendulum, volatile and fluxional. If anytime it hits to the bottom line, selfishness (a very common human instinct for self-defense) surfaces. Relationship break-up, hurts lingered, trust breached. Another emotional turmoil. Never-ending.

Should you blame yourself? Should you blame others? No. We are all sinners. We hurt people and people hurt us. And the emotional clutters kept pilling up.

I hope Big and Carries find happiness. However, big needs to clear all his fears and clutters completely before he could love Carries completely.  There is a person I want Big to know, he is Jesus. Big just needs to ask Jesus to come to his life. It just takes s small simple step of faith to believe. Once he asks and believe. He will see tremendous breakthrough. Believe in Jesus took our sins away and cleanse us. There if anyone in Christ, he is a new creation, the old had gone, the new had come.

Accepting Jesus is a gift. Once you have experience, you will never know how exhilarating to meet Him. You will know what is true love. It is not about your own effort, it is Him. He carries you on his mighty arms. The more we look upon His countenance, the more we we transform to be like him. How amazing of His Grace..

Sometimes, we feel so dry that we ask how can we give and fulfill other people needs. I am so tired. Jesus is waiting for you to renew your souls. “Put your burden on my shoulders, give me all your worry, let me carry you!”. When you find how much Jesus loves you, you automatically give, not with the intention of getting anything, but you fulfill the need of others because you know Jesus loves you and you love him. All glory to Him, not feeding your pride.

Ask from Him

Yesterday while I was driving my way to work, God told me to ask from Him. I told God I want to know Jesus more and more and always be near to Him, I don’t want to be lost again. I want your discernment in my everyday life.

At midnight, while I was writing report God asked me again to ask Him. I stopped and wandered what I really want. I told him I don’t know. And that I time I don’t really know I am thinking about. Mmmm… The salvation of my friends and family… then I continued writing my report.

And now, while I was flipping the bible verse to meditate. I saw this verse.

Matthew 21:22 If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.

Then, I saw this verse as below twice.

Matthew 7:7 Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.

And it dawned on me God is seriously want me to think about what I really want. He is ever ready to pour the blessing! Well, God I know what I want must according to the scripture! Thanks in advance. My wish list will be coming out soon.

Let Go, Let God

Hebrew 10:22

Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.

70% Right brain Dominated

I came across a site called braingle. I am exactly like a right-brained dominated person, as a left handed myself.

Some of the characteristics of each hemisphere:

Left Hemisphere Handles verbal tasks (reading, writing, talking) Solves problems logically Looks at differences Prefers multiple choice tests Likes to plan and structure information Prefers analytical tasks

Right Hemisphere Looks for patterns or similarities Is fluid and spontaneous Acts upon hunches or guesses Handles visual tasks (like drawing) Prefers open-ended questions Synthesizes ideas Handles aesthetic appreciation

http://www.braingle.com/mind/index.php?cat=1

I act spontaneously according to my intuition most of the time. And I tend to look for patterns and similarities rather than the different. It is so true. I love aesthetic appreciation - beauty, spiritual and art. I still work logically and analytically but hunches always there to influence me in making decision. And the thing different, I don’t like open-ended question, I like argumentative. I found myself not really into organize and plan things as I am spontaneous. But I do prefer structure information and I do like handle verbal task, especially reading and writing.

I can say that I am 70% right brain dominated. I hope to improve in organizing task.